Psychic Monday


It it amazing how synchronicities work their way into our lives.

I was pulled to go to a psychic reading at this bookstore that I heard about on Saturday, when I wandered into a little store with some air plants and crystals, thinking they might have palo santo. They didn’t, the nice clerk told me, but she suggested I check out a bookstore called East West, in a neighborhood that is somewhat close by but that I never get to for some reason.

I looked up their hours and found their website, which had a calendar of events page, and that is how I came to find they have some kind of spirituality related events nearly every day of the week. The “Psychic Monday” sessions jumped out at me, as I’ve been thinking of having a reading done. I meditate and journal and generally know how to receive messages from my higher self, but I’ve been feeling like a need a second opinion, so to speak. To hear an objective voice.

The two readers, Lindsey and Andrew, were light and vibrant and playful. My phone broke while I was walking in and I’ll admit that I was worried about how I’m going to fix it and I was carrying that with me when I walked in. I did not know what to expect, I have never done anything like this before today. I was a little skeptical but I chose to just be open to whatever was about to happen. They started off by saying they would only bring forth what was brought to them out of love, which I appreciated, and then started going around the room answering people’s questions. There was communication with loved ones from the other side, and the bringing up of memories from the past as well as visions for the future.

Here are some of the helpful insights and advice they gave to the group:

1. First off, they said that March-May of this year is going to bring about massive transformation for everyone in at least one way. To relax, have fun, and roll with these changes is the way to approach this. Letting things change and seeing where that change takes us will have great benefits. Remember, all change is ultimately for our highest and greatest good.

2. Pay attention to the “breadcrumbs”. We are not given the whole treasure map at once. Time is a construct and thus, we are making the map as we go. There is no “right” or “wrong” choice, only what we choose. If we choose what is in alignment with our beliefs, values, and goals and it feels right, that is all we need to know. When we take a step, the next step appears, but we have to trust and take the step we see, first.

3. We often get so caught up focusing on specific things that we want in our life, instead of simply focusing on how we want to feel. If we imagine how we want to feel, and visualize ourselves feeling that way, all of the details will work themselves out. They’ve already been taken care of, in truth, we just need to allow them to come in, and we can’t do that if we’re continually pushing the solutions away by having a specific idea of how they’re supposed to look.

4. Whatever our dreams are, whatever the vision for how we want our life to go, what the universe or God or the divine in whatever name you call it has planned for us is so much greater, more expansive and farther reaching than anything we can fathom or dream up for ourselves. We just need to trust, have faith, follow the breadcrumbs, and not take it so seriously!

5. PLAY. We are here for a short time and nothing is worth doing if we are not doing it with a joyful attitude and a grateful heart. Play is the answer to feeling stuck, lost, confused, downtrodden, heartbroken, or any of the other variety of valleys we inevitably encounter in this life. Play is so important and it always can and must find its way into our schedules – the busier we are, the more we need it. Play costs nothing and can be as simple as a walk in nature, playing with a pet or a child, painting, drawing, coloring. The psychics talked specifically about connection to music and dance as well and there is something about the rhythmic movements involved in dance to certain beats that wake up our spirits and fill us up with bliss. (Keep dancing!)

6. Our loved ones, “spirit guides”, are always available to us whenever we call upon them. They can help us navigate times when we are in need of comfort. They can act on our behalf in situations where we feel we are in over our head. They are our advocates, our cheerleaders, and they push us towards growth. They want to see us achieve our full potential and be the best that we can be. They can dish out tough love as often as they can be joking and playful. All in all, we are encouraged to follow our dreams, because hey it’s only life, and death isn’t scary like we make it out to be (something that has been coming to the forefront of my dreams lately).

My question was about listening for messages and interpreting them, trusting the guidance that we are given.

Andrew basically reminded me to stay open to any and all ideas. That especially when it comes to my writing I tend to be a little ADD (true) and I can learn to use that energy to channel it into multiple projects and ideas. Not all of them will work out, not all of them are meant to. Not all of them will be “well received” but still to put them out there. Basically just to have fun with it and not worry so much about the outcome, about it being perfect, about people liking it or liking me.

He also mentioned that there’s a story I keep repeating to myself. One told to me when I was a young child about my worthiness, or lack thereof. How a lot of pressure was placed on me to be something that I was not and how I was teased by children and generally not understood by authority figures (also true). This brought up some painful emotions in me and also in Andrew. I don’t know how he could have known that and I can’t explain it, other than to say that we really can look into other people’s souls when we’re really paying attention. A reminder that it’s time to let the old stories go so that I can truly believe in myself.

Then as if I needed more proof that these messages were meant for me, he quoted something I happened to also have posted on my Instagram a week ago: “When you are born into a world you don’t fit in, it’s because you were born to help create a new one”.

Cue all the warm fuzzy feelings in my heart.

Lindsey took it a step further and said that she was also getting messages about me traveling. I smiled. I hadn’t mentioned anything about traveling but she could feel that I’ve been feeling the need. She said she sees me doing traveling and doing humanitarian work. That I’m not someone seeking recognition but that I truly want to help people and the planet. This is true, and to hear someone else say they saw this in me, cue heart melting.

It’s nice to hear reflected back what we already know in our hearts. A kind of confirmation on our affirmations. Everyone in the group seemed to get something out of it. The energy was comforting and healing.

Even though I went into it not knowing what to expect, I went into it, and I’m glad that I did. What I’m taking away is confirmation of what I already knew in my heart as well as some new insightful tips to get me back on track in places I have been doubting myself unnecessarily.

My phone still broken, I’ll deal with it tomorrow. I had a choice when that happened to take it in then and possibly miss the session, or wait until tomorrow, knowing the phone repair shop would be closed by the time I got done and I’d have to go a whole day without my phone. (End of the world… I know.. )

I would encourage anyone thinking about getting a psychic reading to do it. If you’re thinking about doing anything out of love, I would encourage you to do it. Curiosity is our greatest ally. We may just surprise ourselves, it may be the extra push of motivation we need.

In shamanic cultures, sychronicities are recognized as signs that you are on the right path.

Or as Andrew stated, “If you’re alive, then you’re on your path.”

If you’re alive, it’s not too late. Have a little patience, make room for play, and above all else, LOVE.

New Year, Same Me (but with a new perspective)

2015… what can I say, it was a crazy ride.

In June my life changed.

In November my life changed again.

Now in the first month of 2016, I feel my life is being changed a little each day. I’m not the same person that I was a year ago, 6 months ago, I’m not even the same person I was last week.

It is easy to feel bombarded by things. Overwhelmed by things that normally, I wouldn’t have even noticed (but were still affecting me). So it’s both good and bad. Like everything in life. At least the dark times help us remember what makes the light so special. Accept it when it is there because it probably has something it’s trying to teach us.

I learned how to let love in just a little bit more, by being aware. That is perhaps the greatest thing.

I have learned how to not keep things going that have ended. I could be mad at my parents or I can forgive them. I choose to forgive them. And my sister, we’ve been fighting, and that’s not easy either. I just hope she knows that she knows that I am always here if she ever really needs me.

There’s a reason difficult times come. They are pushing us, towards growth and expansion. Towards opening up. In those moments we either move closer to love or to fear.

I’m practicing speaking my truth. Speaking up is an act of love. I wasn’t taking the time to really be there for myself. I had forgotten about effective communication. About using my voice when it really matters.

I’m still fucking up. Big time. Or I’m just more aware of it now.

“It’s supposed to be hard. If it were easy, everyone would do it.”

Okay, so it’s hard for everyone. I don’t feel so alone.

But in figuring out the next step? Yep, totally alone on that one. No one can decide for me.

And I realized I have been making things so much harder than they need to be.

It doesn’t have to be a struggle, but it is painful. Letting go of all of those attachments to things. Mostly beliefs that are doing more harm than good. Yeah, they don’t serve me anymore. But they have bonded themselves to me and here I am trying to pry them off. Fighting my way through the muck to the other side. It’s uncomfortable. It’s exciting but it’s scary. I know what is waiting on the other side. I’ve caught glimpses. And so I keep fighting.

I have this feeling that maybe I need to completely shed my old self in order to really move on. Things on the inside feel radically different than they used to be, and different than they seem to be on the outside.

After all these years I’m finally learning how to be my own best friend.

Take a breath. In the name of love, I take the next step.

Banana Beet Smoothie Recipe


Riding this wave of energy from all of the moon and planetary activity, short on sleep, need something yummy to wake me up enough to do some things until this subsides a little bit.

This superfood smoothie is an awesome way to get nutrients without having to cook anything or even use your jaw to chew. For the truly inspired lazy person who danced a little too close to the sun and is feeling the burn.

My magic bullet broke a week ago (single tear) so I used a blender to make this one and I had a lot of extra – not complaining!

Here’s what I put in this thing:

  • 1 frozen banana
  • 1 unfrozen, ripe banana
  • 1 cup coconut water
  • 1 tablespoon beet powder
  • 2 tablespoons cacao powder
  • 1 tablespoon maca powder
  • 2 cups of mixed greens – baby kale, baby chard, baby spinach
  • 1 tablespoon milk thistle seeds
  • 1 tablespoon black chia seeds
  • 1 tablespoon almond butter
  • 1 tablespoon coconut oil
  • couple slices of ginger
  • splash of cold brew coffee (optional)
  • garnished with a late-season fig!

Woop woop, there you have it. It was really so delicious! And if you’re wondering about the beet powder, I found it in bulk at the grocery store and did not in fact grind up beets into a powder. Yes, beet powder is a thing! And beets are so good for detoxifying your organs, especially your liver, which gets bogged down with cleaning your blood so that your skin (also an organ) remains nice and everything’s working normal.

The combo of beet powder, milk thistle, and power greens makes this smoothie extra detoxifying. While the cacao and maca provide valid energy you can feel right away.

Clear out the old stuff and make space for the new day! Enjoy it :)

Open Heart


Of course I know what it feels like to feel unseen, unheard, like what you are doing doesn’t matter. I’ve been there many times. We all have self-doubts and insecurities. The sources vary in size and kind, it is part of being human, but we don’t have to listen to them. We don’t have to let them stop us from going after what we want in this life, even if that changes daily.

We learn to hide our hearts around people the people we don’t know, and sometimes even those we do.

This is for a sense of protection and it is good for that purpose. It definitely keeps us safe. But it keeps away real connection also.

I used to feel unsupported by life. Like I had no one I could really count on and no one to trust. But once I realized that I was making all of that my reality by focusing on it and believing it to be true, it was easier to stop believing it to be true. Once I realized that everyone feels the same at one time or another, it has been easier to relate to other people on a deeper level.

All of this good was always around me, I just wasn’t paying attention.

So I want you to pay attention to the good too, if you can, as much as you can.

As comforting as it can be holding onto anxiety and fear and the stories we tell ourselves about our pasts and our futures, it keeps us from being our real selves. Our real selves want to show up in the world ready to share the gifts we have and receive the gifts from others. Our hearts are always there, rattling inside the cages that we’ve built around them, banging on and bending the bars, trying to break free.

I don’t know anything except what we all know deep down, which is that we are all in this shared human experience together. And it gets dark sometimes but if we move through those fears that are in our minds, we can come out on the other side with all of that space ready to be filled up with joy, appreciation, love.

Feel the support. Feel the love. Feel the patience and the kindness of those around you and really believe that everyone is always just doing the best they can.

When we realize we are already all connected in this deep way, real connection is inevitable.

Believe in yourself and in the goodness of others. Do what matters most to you and don’t worry about the rest.



It feels so fucking good to be back in the flow of life again.

Peeling back up in Cobra today, I open my eyes and look down at my mat.

I see the individual threads of the fibers woven together just inches in front of my face and I realize, the fibers are alive!

Every thing that exists is made up of energy.

Everything is alive.

How can I not be amazed at life when it’s that fucking magical?

Enough with spoiling the mystery.